Here is an example of the standard custody schedule. When you click on the calendar scroll to May and that will show you Dans time:
Calendar
he has every other weekend from Thursday (after Daycare) to Monday Morning (he will drop her off at daycare)
then he also gets one weekday overnight (alternating between Mondays and Wednesdays)
... It is going to be crazy and somewhat unprdictable, but that is life! Right!?
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Lean on me... When you are not strong
When I am weak he is strong. His strength now has the opportunity to shine through in this circumstance. My eyes are sore and my heart is heavy, but I am still turning to my God who I know will prevail in it all!Why is it so much easier to blog when times are tough?? I have so many thoughts, and so many emotions. I feel like I have no control, so I am praying that God will take control of this situation... Lord I am putting it in your hands, and I am leaning on you, for my strength!
Things didn't go as well as I had hoped, Dan got a lot more of the schedule than I think any of us bargained for, so I will be going long durations without my beautiful baby girl, and my heart is already breaking. I feel as though my baby is being taken away, and I don't know why! I haven't done anything wrong!!
Yesterday was rough, tears streamed down my face throughout the 3 hour custody settlement, and my heart was devastated, I felt helpless and hopeless, and inside I was crying out to God in desperation.
This will be a very rough transition but I know that God will be by my side, and I have so many great Friends to lean on.
I am tired, and fatigued, I am lacking energy and part of me wants to give up. But on the other hand I am determined, determined to fight for my little girl ♥
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Your outlook determines your LIFE
'It is so often true that whether a person carries with him an atmosphere of gloom and depression or one of confidence and courage depends on his individual outlook.' James Keller
Okay so maybe I go a little overboard when it comes to boundaries. I am "Zealous" is what they would say, but I am okay with it, because I would rather be zealous than naive!
But seriously, you know when you meet those people who are constantly dwelling on the negative and have a poor outlook on life in general... Well isn't it frustrating? It is for me! I just want to say to them, "why are you choosing to feel this way!?" all too often they don't realize that they themselves are choosing the life of gloom and doom for themselves, and it is so crippling. I am all to familiar with this because I myself am guilty of doing this...
I am being reminded right now as I watch my sisters family face a tragedy. The tragedy of the loss of a Fathers/Husbands ability to walk. They are also facing the loss of a home, loss of careers, and welcoming 2 more little ones to be additions in their lives; the lives that are filled with the unknown and that of instability. BUT they have such positive attitudes, and outlooks for their lives. They are looking forward with Faith, with Patience, and most of all: with Humble hearts, all the while not knowing what lies ahead of them. I am so proud of them for choosing to live in freedom, freedom from worry, Stress, and so many more negative emotions that could be suffocating their lives. Not to say that they are not overwhelmed at times, which I am sure they are. But they are choosing to focus on what is good. They are choosing to trust that God is in control. They are growing through this tragedy; growing closer to one another, to the Church, but most of all to our God, who is our strength, because without him we are truly weak. Their lives are going to change others lives, and will truly portray what an awesome God we serve, I am excited!! So extremely excited to see what God has in store for them, because I just know that it is going to be something great!
Please continue to pray for them!!
And Just remember when you feel like you have hit rock bottom, someone Else's' rock is lower than yours, so be thankful for what you have and remember that Your Life Is What You Make Of It!! Choose to keep a positive outlook and keep looking upward for the strength that God provides!
"I try to avoid looking forward or backward, and try to keep looking upward." ~Charlotte Bronte
Okay so maybe I go a little overboard when it comes to boundaries. I am "Zealous" is what they would say, but I am okay with it, because I would rather be zealous than naive!
But seriously, you know when you meet those people who are constantly dwelling on the negative and have a poor outlook on life in general... Well isn't it frustrating? It is for me! I just want to say to them, "why are you choosing to feel this way!?" all too often they don't realize that they themselves are choosing the life of gloom and doom for themselves, and it is so crippling. I am all to familiar with this because I myself am guilty of doing this...
I am being reminded right now as I watch my sisters family face a tragedy. The tragedy of the loss of a Fathers/Husbands ability to walk. They are also facing the loss of a home, loss of careers, and welcoming 2 more little ones to be additions in their lives; the lives that are filled with the unknown and that of instability. BUT they have such positive attitudes, and outlooks for their lives. They are looking forward with Faith, with Patience, and most of all: with Humble hearts, all the while not knowing what lies ahead of them. I am so proud of them for choosing to live in freedom, freedom from worry, Stress, and so many more negative emotions that could be suffocating their lives. Not to say that they are not overwhelmed at times, which I am sure they are. But they are choosing to focus on what is good. They are choosing to trust that God is in control. They are growing through this tragedy; growing closer to one another, to the Church, but most of all to our God, who is our strength, because without him we are truly weak. Their lives are going to change others lives, and will truly portray what an awesome God we serve, I am excited!! So extremely excited to see what God has in store for them, because I just know that it is going to be something great!
Please continue to pray for them!!
And Just remember when you feel like you have hit rock bottom, someone Else's' rock is lower than yours, so be thankful for what you have and remember that Your Life Is What You Make Of It!! Choose to keep a positive outlook and keep looking upward for the strength that God provides!
"I try to avoid looking forward or backward, and try to keep looking upward." ~Charlotte Bronte
Friday, April 24, 2009
Spectacular, yet again...
Celebrating Easter and her first Year CTRYAN took some fabulous pictures of Madi!
To enlarge click on the image.
A small Addiction
I must admit I am maybe a little addicted to speed! I am definetly a girly-girl but sometimes I wonder if there is a little bit of guy in me, with my love of fast cars, and gorgeous motorcycles :) I feel so free when I am driving and cruising down the highway with the music blaring in my ears, and the wind blowing through my hair...
So someone (I am saying no names ;) decided to grant me a mini vacation... they handed over their keys in return for mine of course, and I got to cruise around town in the beautiful Nissan 370Z sport, amazing little car I must say!
The car swept me off my feet, no pun intended. It was definetly love and first flight. I am in love with my boss' car! Yes it cheered me up, and I felt like a million dollars, it was a great little vacaion, that was much needed!!
So thanks JB, for a fabulous night with your cute car!
PS love the Monterey Blue, it is a one of a kind car, no one else in MN has the same exact car, which is pretty cool!
So someone (I am saying no names ;) decided to grant me a mini vacation... they handed over their keys in return for mine of course, and I got to cruise around town in the beautiful Nissan 370Z sport, amazing little car I must say!
The car swept me off my feet, no pun intended. It was definetly love and first flight. I am in love with my boss' car! Yes it cheered me up, and I felt like a million dollars, it was a great little vacaion, that was much needed!!
So thanks JB, for a fabulous night with your cute car!
PS love the Monterey Blue, it is a one of a kind car, no one else in MN has the same exact car, which is pretty cool!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
being transparent can be humbling
because who wants to tell someone that they are bleeding from their rear end or that they have a mucus cyst in their mouth, and that when it pops releases icky mucus and a lot of blood... well okay, maybe I don't really have that big of an issue telling people, it is more about how they are going to receive it, or react that is the hard part!
So it is a mucus cyst and we might have to remove it, I am going to feel it out for a few months, if it is something that is untolerable (which I think is going to be the case) they will remove it. It will be painful but after it is healed it will be much better and my mouth will feel much more comfortable! So we will see...
I need to start taking my Miralax again... then my bleeding issues should be fixed. Consequences are what teach me... Hopefully the fissures will heal sooner than later :)
So it is a mucus cyst and we might have to remove it, I am going to feel it out for a few months, if it is something that is untolerable (which I think is going to be the case) they will remove it. It will be painful but after it is healed it will be much better and my mouth will feel much more comfortable! So we will see...
I need to start taking my Miralax again... then my bleeding issues should be fixed. Consequences are what teach me... Hopefully the fissures will heal sooner than later :)
Monday, April 20, 2009
It is more blessed to give than to receive
Acts 20:35 (NLT), many of us are familiar with this verse but don't always truly understand it, until we experience it!
I love giving but have found it hard to give, due to some situational circumstances, so in the past fear has paralyzed me in the area of finances. But regardless of my fear and doubt, I have been giving on a regular basis these past few months, in obedience and in Faith that God would work through my gifts.
And he has... oh, he has! Not only for those receiving the gifts but in me as well...
It is amazing, to see his hand in my life. The more I give, the more he gives back to me, and yet through it all I still feel unworthy, because I am! But he loves me and gives back ten-fold the little that I have given, not only did I enjoy giving, but now I am being rewarded yet again! I have spent all day praising him.
He continually opens my eyes to miracles and situations that I could have never imagined would happen.
I am so blessed!
So if you are living in Fear, where can you step out and take a "Leap of Faith"? You just might be surprised, there is probably a surprise in store for you!
I love giving but have found it hard to give, due to some situational circumstances, so in the past fear has paralyzed me in the area of finances. But regardless of my fear and doubt, I have been giving on a regular basis these past few months, in obedience and in Faith that God would work through my gifts.
And he has... oh, he has! Not only for those receiving the gifts but in me as well...
It is amazing, to see his hand in my life. The more I give, the more he gives back to me, and yet through it all I still feel unworthy, because I am! But he loves me and gives back ten-fold the little that I have given, not only did I enjoy giving, but now I am being rewarded yet again! I have spent all day praising him.
He continually opens my eyes to miracles and situations that I could have never imagined would happen.
I am so blessed!
So if you are living in Fear, where can you step out and take a "Leap of Faith"? You just might be surprised, there is probably a surprise in store for you!
Friday, April 17, 2009
a little more about ME
1 I am a genuinely loving person, and become good friends with people easily
2 I love eating sushi in good company
3 My goal in life is to live fully for Christ
4 I am eclectic when it comes to pretty much everything
5 I am a proud Mommy
6 Church is probably my favortie place to be, of those places that I go to on a regular basis
7 I want to eventually own my own business
8 cleaning and organizing are forte's of mine
9 I am a people person, I love meeting new people daily!
10 I live knowing that the only thing I can take with me when I die are my relationships
11 I am addicted to Facebook
12 reeses easter eggs might be my new favorite candy
13 Chipmunks are now my favorite animal, I have decided they are much cuter than squirrels
14 I love sleep, especially in my comfy bed!
15 I compromised when naming my daughter, Madilynn was not my first choice, but now I couldn't imagine her with any other name
16 I consider myself as having the most best freinds I have ever known anyone to have (see #1)
17 I am a little anal about some things, my close friends and family can attest to that
18 I love watching movies but only with someone else, not by myself
19 I like to read books, but only the ones that are self help or are nonfictional
20 I love being intellectual, and also being mentally stimulated by intriguing thought
21 sometimes I just want to have fun, and not think about anything else other than the moment
22 Liver might be the only food that I detest
23 I love meeting all kinds of people with different personalities and different stories
24 singing at the top of my lungs, with windows open while driving feels exhilarating to me
25 I exude happiness pretty much all of the time, with a smile on my face
26 I wish I were more spontaneous, because it always feels good when I am
27 I always say whatever is on my mind, I am a very open person
28 my dream job is to be a stay at home mom
29 If I had a million dollars I would love to give it all away by buying needed things for people
30 I love giving gifts (see #29)
31 I really love motorcycles; it gives me a real feeling of freedom when I ride
32 if I could go back to change one thing I would have become a professional dancer
33 the sharpie ultra fine point pens are my favorite pens EVER
34 maybe I would become a photographer too (see #32) or an interior decorator...
35 I am pretty impulsive, but I think that it is a good thing :) (see #27)
36 and if you didn't notice already I am an ENFP bordering on ENFJ(according to myers-briggs) (see #28, 32, 34)
37 I am 3 classes short of having a BA in Social Science, argh
38 I inhereted my people pleasing nature from my Mom, and I am fighting it everyday
39 I don't consider myself 'Religious' but I do consider myself a follower and Lover of Jesus
40I love being Home
41 the smell of Black Raspberry Vanilla wallflowers are amazing
42 I am referred to as "smiley" from the president of the company I work for (see #25)
43 I loved Science while I was in school, although I found it interesting it was also challenging
44 even though no one may ever read this, I still enjoy doing it because it always feels good to think about who I am as a person, and to be reminded of who God has made me to be
45 My favorite colors are pink and red
46 I love big sunglasses, cute shoes, and bags of different kinds
47 I think Post it notes are brilliant, whoever invented them was genius
48 I am anxious, I am fidgety and something on me has to be moving all of the time, right now it is the notorious leg shake
49 Lillies are my favorite flowers, they are gorgeous and smell fantastic, so if you are a guy, there it is ;)
50 my reflexes are sensitive, if you hit me in the leg in just the right spot it will unvoluntarily kick
51 James 1:2-4 is my life verse
I was going to do 100, but decided not to... 51 things about me will do :)
no one would read all 100!
2 I love eating sushi in good company
3 My goal in life is to live fully for Christ
4 I am eclectic when it comes to pretty much everything
5 I am a proud Mommy
6 Church is probably my favortie place to be, of those places that I go to on a regular basis
7 I want to eventually own my own business
8 cleaning and organizing are forte's of mine
9 I am a people person, I love meeting new people daily!
10 I live knowing that the only thing I can take with me when I die are my relationships
11 I am addicted to Facebook
12 reeses easter eggs might be my new favorite candy
13 Chipmunks are now my favorite animal, I have decided they are much cuter than squirrels
14 I love sleep, especially in my comfy bed!
15 I compromised when naming my daughter, Madilynn was not my first choice, but now I couldn't imagine her with any other name
16 I consider myself as having the most best freinds I have ever known anyone to have (see #1)
17 I am a little anal about some things, my close friends and family can attest to that
18 I love watching movies but only with someone else, not by myself
19 I like to read books, but only the ones that are self help or are nonfictional
20 I love being intellectual, and also being mentally stimulated by intriguing thought
21 sometimes I just want to have fun, and not think about anything else other than the moment
22 Liver might be the only food that I detest
23 I love meeting all kinds of people with different personalities and different stories
24 singing at the top of my lungs, with windows open while driving feels exhilarating to me
25 I exude happiness pretty much all of the time, with a smile on my face
26 I wish I were more spontaneous, because it always feels good when I am
27 I always say whatever is on my mind, I am a very open person
28 my dream job is to be a stay at home mom
29 If I had a million dollars I would love to give it all away by buying needed things for people
30 I love giving gifts (see #29)
31 I really love motorcycles; it gives me a real feeling of freedom when I ride
32 if I could go back to change one thing I would have become a professional dancer
33 the sharpie ultra fine point pens are my favorite pens EVER
34 maybe I would become a photographer too (see #32) or an interior decorator...
35 I am pretty impulsive, but I think that it is a good thing :) (see #27)
36 and if you didn't notice already I am an ENFP bordering on ENFJ(according to myers-briggs) (see #28, 32, 34)
37 I am 3 classes short of having a BA in Social Science, argh
38 I inhereted my people pleasing nature from my Mom, and I am fighting it everyday
39 I don't consider myself 'Religious' but I do consider myself a follower and Lover of Jesus
40I love being Home
41 the smell of Black Raspberry Vanilla wallflowers are amazing
42 I am referred to as "smiley" from the president of the company I work for (see #25)
43 I loved Science while I was in school, although I found it interesting it was also challenging
44 even though no one may ever read this, I still enjoy doing it because it always feels good to think about who I am as a person, and to be reminded of who God has made me to be
45 My favorite colors are pink and red
46 I love big sunglasses, cute shoes, and bags of different kinds
47 I think Post it notes are brilliant, whoever invented them was genius
48 I am anxious, I am fidgety and something on me has to be moving all of the time, right now it is the notorious leg shake
49 Lillies are my favorite flowers, they are gorgeous and smell fantastic, so if you are a guy, there it is ;)
50 my reflexes are sensitive, if you hit me in the leg in just the right spot it will unvoluntarily kick
51 James 1:2-4 is my life verse
I was going to do 100, but decided not to... 51 things about me will do :)
no one would read all 100!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
removal??
Can a Cyst be removed? Because it is growing back, or at least I think that it is the cyst that is growing back... and of course I didn't notice it until it started hurting, maybe next time I will notice it before it becomes this tender (hopefully there won't be a next time). I will be going in on April 22nd, and I am sure that he will biopsy it again. I am going to discuss with him the possibility of removing it though, I am sick of having mouth pain...
Wow, and I discovered that my Doc wrote a text book on PDT, pretty smart guy, he is really nice too :)
Wow, and I discovered that my Doc wrote a text book on PDT, pretty smart guy, he is really nice too :)
Happiness is a Choice
It is as easy as that, although sometimes we make it more complicated. It is as simple as choosing. I was reminded today, and it brings a smile to my face, because I know that I am free; free to choose my attitudes, my behaviors and my actions. No one has control over me, I have the power to make the choice, and today I choose Joy and happiness :)
If you want to be happy, be. ~Leo Tolstoy
If you want to be happy, be. ~Leo Tolstoy
Friday, April 10, 2009
Happy Birthday Madi ♥
A year ago today I gave birth to my fabulous daughter! Wishing her a happy first bithday with many more love filled years ahead! I love you baby girl ♥
Click on the image to enlargeTuesday, April 7, 2009
Let Go and Let Love
'Even after all this time
The sun never says to the earth, "You owe me."
Look what happens with a Love like that!
—It lights the whole Sky.'
The sun never says to the earth, "You owe me."
Look what happens with a Love like that!
—It lights the whole Sky.'
Love is amazing, it brings Joy, pleasure and delight! It is magnificent! It opens our eyes to truth and it even prolongs our lives!
Love is healing and restoring for both the giver and the receiver. Why would you choose to hate or choose to hold resentment? Unforgiveness is an acid which first destroys the vessel in which it is contained... that vessell is you! Are you holding unforgiveness in your heart? Do you have hatred toward someone? If so just think: You are destroying yourself, that acid is burning away at you, not the person you hate. Choose to forgive, and choose to love, love brings true life.
'I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear.' MLKJ
We are called to love people as Christ loves us!
Loving and being loved is the greatest gift that can be given or received!
My Love for Madilynn is so great, yet she doesn't even know it, and even if she did she wouldn't be able to fathom it, yet it brings so much joy to me just to be able to love her. A mothers love is amazing. I never really understood what an unconditional love was like until I gave birth to my daughter, God revealed to me some amazing things through her life. Now I have a better understanding of Gods love for us and it blows my mind.Monday, April 6, 2009
we have hope
During this time my heart is being torn for my sister and her family. She and her husband Sean are very happily married, they have 4 little ones (2boys, 2girls) and they have 2 on the way, another boy and girl.
Sean was the working spouse, while April was going to school full time, to pursue a nursing degree. When all of a sudden he began experiencing nuerological numbing issues in his lower body. He is now hospitalized and has since been diagnosed with MS. He cannot walk or feel anything from his waist down. He was told on Saturday that he may never regain the strength, use of, or sensation in his legs again, he may be in a wheelchair for the rest of his life.
He still seems pretty determined that he will recover... Please say a prayer for him and his family - The Ervins. Pray for a full recovery, we have faith that miracles can happen :)
Psalm 42:11
Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!
link HERE to read the updates
Sean was the working spouse, while April was going to school full time, to pursue a nursing degree. When all of a sudden he began experiencing nuerological numbing issues in his lower body. He is now hospitalized and has since been diagnosed with MS. He cannot walk or feel anything from his waist down. He was told on Saturday that he may never regain the strength, use of, or sensation in his legs again, he may be in a wheelchair for the rest of his life.
He still seems pretty determined that he will recover... Please say a prayer for him and his family - The Ervins. Pray for a full recovery, we have faith that miracles can happen :)
Psalm 42:11
Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!
link HERE to read the updates
Friday, April 3, 2009
Christmas List
What a fabulous Idea I had today!!
Since I cannot shop, I can only DREAM.
I am going to start a WISH LIST to fulfill my shopping desires.
This isn't bad is it?!
anyway here is the first item on my wish list:
The ADOBE Creative Suite
any of the above suites will do! So if anyone is feeling generous...
;)
Since I cannot shop, I can only DREAM.
I am going to start a WISH LIST to fulfill my shopping desires.
This isn't bad is it?!
anyway here is the first item on my wish list:
The ADOBE Creative Suite
any of the above suites will do! So if anyone is feeling generous...
;)
Saint Paul, MN Childrens Museum - FREE
Every Third sunday of the month Target pays for your admission. No gimicks, I promise, I think it is just a promotional thing for them to do... This is a fabulous place for all of the family! It is filled with toys, activities, and playgrounds for all of the kiddos of every age.
Link HERE to check out their website
It usually costs $8.95 per person for a one day admission, BUT every 3rd sunday of the month it is free. So pack up the kiddos after church and head on down. Be sure to park in the lot kiddy corner to the museum (it is labeled as Childrens Museum Parking) and it will be $3 for parking for the duration of your stay.
So for $3 you can have a sunday filled with fun for all of your Family.
PS don't forget to pack the camara, there are a ton of fun memeories you can capture!
Link HERE to check out their website
It usually costs $8.95 per person for a one day admission, BUT every 3rd sunday of the month it is free. So pack up the kiddos after church and head on down. Be sure to park in the lot kiddy corner to the museum (it is labeled as Childrens Museum Parking) and it will be $3 for parking for the duration of your stay.
So for $3 you can have a sunday filled with fun for all of your Family.
PS don't forget to pack the camara, there are a ton of fun memeories you can capture!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
she is Cute and sweet and so much fun, my baby girl is turning ONE!
5480 blackberry Trail Apt #238 Inver Grove Heights, MN 55076Come and celebrate with us!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Little White Lie?
I think Not!
When I looked this Idiom up on thefreedictionary.com (a website I use pretty much daily) this was the definition: a small, usually harmless lie; a fib.
The key word here is
HARMLESS...
And I want to give you a FACT Check: NO lie is harmless.
Lies compromise our Integrity and by compromising our integrity we are compromising our healthy character, and who we are!
Integrity is defined as being complete; sound; whole; honest; Steadfast adherence to a moral or ethical code; the state of being unimpaired; being reliable and Fair. All of which are positive characteristics that help us through life, that do not hinder us. All of these things are what I want to be.
The opposite of integrity is: dishonesty; unreliability; violation of moral; incompleteness; brokenness... need I say more??
Every time you lie, even if it is a 'white lie' you are compromising who you are. You are chipping away your moral character, the very person that you are and what you stand for is being wavered. SO next time you contemplate lying think of who you want to be.
The only reason I am able to say this is because it has been something that has been a challenge in my life. I am aspiring to be a woman of integrity, because that is what I am called to be, who I WANT to be, and not only that when I have integrity I am much more comfortable in my own skin, knowing that I am living truthfully and honestly!
"A person is not given integrity. It results from the relentless pursuit of honesty at all times."
"Losers make promises they often break. Winners make commitments they always keep."
When I looked this Idiom up on thefreedictionary.com (a website I use pretty much daily) this was the definition: a small, usually harmless lie; a fib.
The key word here is
HARMLESS...
And I want to give you a FACT Check: NO lie is harmless.
Lies compromise our Integrity and by compromising our integrity we are compromising our healthy character, and who we are!
Integrity is defined as being complete; sound; whole; honest; Steadfast adherence to a moral or ethical code; the state of being unimpaired; being reliable and Fair. All of which are positive characteristics that help us through life, that do not hinder us. All of these things are what I want to be.
The opposite of integrity is: dishonesty; unreliability; violation of moral; incompleteness; brokenness... need I say more??
Every time you lie, even if it is a 'white lie' you are compromising who you are. You are chipping away your moral character, the very person that you are and what you stand for is being wavered. SO next time you contemplate lying think of who you want to be.
The only reason I am able to say this is because it has been something that has been a challenge in my life. I am aspiring to be a woman of integrity, because that is what I am called to be, who I WANT to be, and not only that when I have integrity I am much more comfortable in my own skin, knowing that I am living truthfully and honestly!
"A person is not given integrity. It results from the relentless pursuit of honesty at all times."
"Losers make promises they often break. Winners make commitments they always keep."
Thursday, March 26, 2009
blog in 10
1-more month and madi will be a year old!
2-is the number of serious car accidents that I have been in (as a driver), neither were my fault, wrong place wrong time, one of them the stoplight came down on top of my car
3-classes left before I have my BA in Social Science, unfortunately they all have to be done consecutively I cannot do them all in one semester... s 3 more semester left for me :(
4-might be the number of kids I would want in a perfect world... my perfect world would be: the ability to be a SAHM
5-is the average number of glasses of water I drink a day... it should be more, but atleast I don't drink soda or anything else for that matter
6-is the number of children my sister will have in June, it is 4 right now, but she has two more on the way, crazy.... I know!
10-years and 11 months is how long I have been a resident of Minnesota, I couldn't imagine California feeling like home now, although it would be dreamy to live in a warmer state near an ocean.
2-is the number of serious car accidents that I have been in (as a driver), neither were my fault, wrong place wrong time, one of them the stoplight came down on top of my car
3-classes left before I have my BA in Social Science, unfortunately they all have to be done consecutively I cannot do them all in one semester... s 3 more semester left for me :(
4-might be the number of kids I would want in a perfect world... my perfect world would be: the ability to be a SAHM
5-is the average number of glasses of water I drink a day... it should be more, but atleast I don't drink soda or anything else for that matter
6-is the number of children my sister will have in June, it is 4 right now, but she has two more on the way, crazy.... I know!
7-days a week I think of how amazing God is and how blessed I am!
8-is the number of hours of sleep I WISH that I got every night, unfortunately it is usually around 5-6 leaving me sleep deprived
9- months is when Madi started to walk, can you tell I am a proud Mommy!?
10-years and 11 months is how long I have been a resident of Minnesota, I couldn't imagine California feeling like home now, although it would be dreamy to live in a warmer state near an ocean.
What Matters Most in life?
The ending of Crown Financial happened much too soon. we still have yet to have our get toegther, which will happen in a couple of weeks... As we ended our session last night we talked of what is really important, what is eternal, and what truly matters in this life. Lyndy brought up an insightful poem that I thought would be good to share. So here is a fortune cookie for today:
The Dash
The following is a poem by Linda Ellis © 1998. Consider the implications for your own life's choices
I read of a man who stood to speak at the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone from the beginning to the end.
He noted that first came the date of her birth and spoke of the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all was the dash between those years.
For that dash represents all the time that she spent alive on earth...
And now only those who loved her know what that little line is worth.
For it matters not, how much we own; the cars .... the house... the cash.
What matters is how we live and love and how we spend our dash.
So think about this long and hard ... are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left. (You could be at "dash mid-range")
If we could just slow down enough to consider what's true and real,
And always try to understand the way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger, and show appreciation more,
And love the people in our lives like we've never loved before.
If we treat each other with respect and more often wear a smile...
Remembering that this special dash might only last a little while.
So, when your eulogy's being read with your life's actions to rehash...
Would you be proud of the things they say about how you spend your dash??
The following is a poem by Linda Ellis © 1998. Consider the implications for your own life's choices
I read of a man who stood to speak at the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone from the beginning to the end.
He noted that first came the date of her birth and spoke of the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all was the dash between those years.
For that dash represents all the time that she spent alive on earth...
And now only those who loved her know what that little line is worth.
For it matters not, how much we own; the cars .... the house... the cash.
What matters is how we live and love and how we spend our dash.
So think about this long and hard ... are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left. (You could be at "dash mid-range")
If we could just slow down enough to consider what's true and real,
And always try to understand the way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger, and show appreciation more,
And love the people in our lives like we've never loved before.
If we treat each other with respect and more often wear a smile...
Remembering that this special dash might only last a little while.
So, when your eulogy's being read with your life's actions to rehash...
Would you be proud of the things they say about how you spend your dash??
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Sean and April
I feel a little sick to my stomach to be honest, and maybe a little overwhelmed for my sister and her family. BUT I know that God is going to work this all out, and I know that they will see better days.
Sean was officially diagnosed with MS after numerous days of exeriencing symptoms. His legs were completely numb, he was able to walk, but things have worsened and now he can no longer walk or stand for that matter. He has even began losing sight in his right eye, but through it all he still laughs and smiles, and asks the doctors questions with kindness in his tone. Even though he was experiencing these symptoms quite some time ago, he was turned away from the hospital three times before they finally admitted him. It is somewhat frustrating because we know now that if he had started his treatments sooner they could have prevented it from becoming so severe. But now he is just thankful, I love his heart, it is golden.
I have been updating his caring bridge site. I started one up for them becuase April was feeling a bit overwhelmed with 4 kids and being pregnant with twins, as well as having gestational diabetes - being insulin dependant would be enough to wipe me out. But somehow I think that I am sorta right when I say that April is half wonder woman and half human, some of the things that girl has survived through... it is amazing she is still alive. I love her so much!
So here is the update on Sean and for all of those that want to get regular updates link to his caring bridge site via the photo of him and his 4 kids, on my sidebar.
I just got home from visiting Sean in the hospital. He seems to be doing well, especially because I brought him cosettas, cookies, and Twilight! He is a bit nervous for tomorrow though. They will be inserting a tube into his neck by cutting a hole, so he is definetly dreading it, as I am sure anyone would. They are inserting the tube because it is much more effective to perform plasmapherisis (plasma-fer-ee-sis) via a large tube in his neck vs. a small tube in his vein.
While I was at the hospital they were performing the plasmapherisis on him through a vein in his arm. What he is having done is also known as TPE (Therapuetic Plasma Exchange) This is where they remove the blood from his body, filter out the plasma through the blood via a large machine, dispose of the plasma, and replace it with new plasma. So we got to see his plasma, and even thinking about it right now makes me a little sick to my stomach, needless to say when the nurse first started the procedure I felt a bit faint, and sick to my stomach...
I was there for a little over an hour and it was still being conducted as I left. The nurse said that when they do it through the vein it takes quite a bit longer, a few hours.
But so far so good, the procedure is going just fine and Seans nerves calmed as time passed. Just be praying for tomorrow, they will insert the tube then perform the procedure again tomorrow, then every other day to follow.
I asked Sean about his symptoms and he said that nothing has improved. His eye sight hasn't worsened though so that is positive.
He has a great attitude, which is fabulous for him and the whole family. I know April is a little overwhelmed with the kids, she wants to be there as much as possible for Sean but sometimes it is difficult to find a sitter. So if anyone is free or would like to help out in any way, this might be something that is quite helpful for April. But their love for eachother amazes me, I don't doubt that they will be happy and in love until the day they die. They have been through so much together, and they just celebrated 11 years.
Thanks to Tracy and Graham for watching Ember and Cole. And thanks to all of the visitors, Sean has told me about each and every one of you who have come to visit, it is very encouraging to him and it really does mean a lot!
If you have any concerns feel free to contact me via email.
Thanks,
Becca
Sean was officially diagnosed with MS after numerous days of exeriencing symptoms. His legs were completely numb, he was able to walk, but things have worsened and now he can no longer walk or stand for that matter. He has even began losing sight in his right eye, but through it all he still laughs and smiles, and asks the doctors questions with kindness in his tone. Even though he was experiencing these symptoms quite some time ago, he was turned away from the hospital three times before they finally admitted him. It is somewhat frustrating because we know now that if he had started his treatments sooner they could have prevented it from becoming so severe. But now he is just thankful, I love his heart, it is golden.
I have been updating his caring bridge site. I started one up for them becuase April was feeling a bit overwhelmed with 4 kids and being pregnant with twins, as well as having gestational diabetes - being insulin dependant would be enough to wipe me out. But somehow I think that I am sorta right when I say that April is half wonder woman and half human, some of the things that girl has survived through... it is amazing she is still alive. I love her so much!
So here is the update on Sean and for all of those that want to get regular updates link to his caring bridge site via the photo of him and his 4 kids, on my sidebar.
I just got home from visiting Sean in the hospital. He seems to be doing well, especially because I brought him cosettas, cookies, and Twilight! He is a bit nervous for tomorrow though. They will be inserting a tube into his neck by cutting a hole, so he is definetly dreading it, as I am sure anyone would. They are inserting the tube because it is much more effective to perform plasmapherisis (plasma-fer-ee-sis) via a large tube in his neck vs. a small tube in his vein.
While I was at the hospital they were performing the plasmapherisis on him through a vein in his arm. What he is having done is also known as TPE (Therapuetic Plasma Exchange) This is where they remove the blood from his body, filter out the plasma through the blood via a large machine, dispose of the plasma, and replace it with new plasma. So we got to see his plasma, and even thinking about it right now makes me a little sick to my stomach, needless to say when the nurse first started the procedure I felt a bit faint, and sick to my stomach...
I was there for a little over an hour and it was still being conducted as I left. The nurse said that when they do it through the vein it takes quite a bit longer, a few hours.
But so far so good, the procedure is going just fine and Seans nerves calmed as time passed. Just be praying for tomorrow, they will insert the tube then perform the procedure again tomorrow, then every other day to follow.
I asked Sean about his symptoms and he said that nothing has improved. His eye sight hasn't worsened though so that is positive.
He has a great attitude, which is fabulous for him and the whole family. I know April is a little overwhelmed with the kids, she wants to be there as much as possible for Sean but sometimes it is difficult to find a sitter. So if anyone is free or would like to help out in any way, this might be something that is quite helpful for April. But their love for eachother amazes me, I don't doubt that they will be happy and in love until the day they die. They have been through so much together, and they just celebrated 11 years.
Thanks to Tracy and Graham for watching Ember and Cole. And thanks to all of the visitors, Sean has told me about each and every one of you who have come to visit, it is very encouraging to him and it really does mean a lot!
If you have any concerns feel free to contact me via email.
Thanks,
Becca
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