Sunday, February 21, 2010

Some Pieces are Secret

is that bad, that some of me is not shown?

I am not revealing my whole...

Sometimes I feel pulled down by the weight of it's hold.

On occasion my life feels like it is not my own.

I walk on, with that "Rebecca smile" on my face,

part of me is ashamed, and part of me is at peace.

I can finally see some of my inner beauty, it is amazing.

Am I just striving for perfection?

Because It brings me exhilaration, joy, happiness and warmth.

I feel closer to God, deep inside my soul.

Yet I feel a part of my soul, anxious and concerned.

Or is it this female side, that is taking control.

Emotions consume me, they eat me whole.

I need to escape the pressures, from myself, and from this God wretched word.

I am going to step aside,

stop looking for the answers elsewhere.

I am going to pray, draw near,

and see where I am guided.

Monday, February 15, 2010


In my weakness, I look for your Strength.

It is you who brings me peace.

I am tired and I cannot do this without you.

Time has consumed me.

Eaten me from the inside out.

I am sorry again. I am lost. I need you.

Help me find my way again.

You bring me energy.

Sometimes I forget to turn to you.

And when I remember, I am again humbled

when I embrace your amazing Grace.

Your Love. Your astonishing acceptance.

Oneness with myself. Oneness with You, God.

As I draw near I can feel you. Your love consumes me.

It feels replenishing. I feel refreshed again.

As my tears fall, I am reminded.

How I have missed my creator.

As I draw near again. My Heart rejoices.

I feel rejuvenated and refreshed. So Alive.

My soul dances, and my arms reach to feel your presence.

As I worship, I can feel you deep inside my soul.

I am consumed.

I feel so near, to my origin.

Your presence is ecstasy, words bring it no justice.

I know it is You God, You are the ONE.

The only ONE that I need. You satisfy My every want, my every need.

Again I find myself crying out.

'Here I am, Here is my life. I am Yours'

In my weakness, I draw near To You.

You bring me Peace. I am again so thankful.